How Many Times Have We Done This?

 The question of the morning as I was saying goodbye once again to my husband was, "Don't cry, how many times have we done this?" My answer: "Too Many." Too many this deployment and to many times through the other two deployments and Hurricane Katrina. But I can't not make myself cry when I'm leaving my heart behind over and over again. People say and think it gets easier, but it really doesn't, it just changes, life changes, but saying goodbye never gets easier in these circumstances. And truth be told my hubby isn't heartless, he just doesn't like seeing me cry. And I'm not a crier. I actually dislike crying in public. I consider myself strong and independent but I still cry, I can't help it.