The Truth of the Matter

   The truth of the matter is that I'm not a crier. However, this deployment I've had at least four meltdowns (crying sessions) due to stress and life. Today by far was the most humiliating (maybe). I was at the doctor's office and she kept asking me questions about my husband and family. Sometimes I want others to ask and show support and that they care about what's going on, others time I just don't want to go there. Today was definitely, don't go there or I'm going to start crying. She didn't get that memo and I started bawling in the doctor's office. It was humiliating, so then why do I share, because life is messy and complicated, even more so when you are going through a deployment. Thankfully, I was able to regroup and go on but it took a conversation over the phone with another army wife and some helpful insight from my supervisor. Now to remember, just one foot in front of the other.