Wednesday, August 31, 2011
The Truth of the Matter
The truth of the matter is that I'm not a crier. However, this deployment I've had at least four meltdowns (crying sessions) due to stress and life. Today by far was the most humiliating (maybe). I was at the doctor's office and she kept asking me questions about my husband and family. Sometimes I want others to ask and show support and that they care about what's going on, others time I just don't want to go there. Today was definitely, don't go there or I'm going to start crying. She didn't get that memo and I started bawling in the doctor's office. It was humiliating, so then why do I share, because life is messy and complicated, even more so when you are going through a deployment. Thankfully, I was able to regroup and go on but it took a conversation over the phone with another army wife and some helpful insight from my supervisor. Now to remember, just one foot in front of the other.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Sometimes I Simply Cannot Do It All.
I've learned through this deployment, that I simply cannot do it all. Now I've learn this lessons several times before, but it takes me awhile to really get it. I've got this control thing about me that I want things to go a certain way and when they do not I start getting frustrated. Being a Mom and a therapist I've learned that I can't base my day off of my kids (my own and my clients) behavior. I can only control how I respond, not what they do. Being a Mom that is constantly on the go, especially right now with football thrown into the routine, I've learned that I simply have to let go (or go crazy), and seeing that I'm basically a single Mom right now, number two is not an option. So if I don't get to workout as much as I want I'll survive, if I have to go through the drive through or eat on the go, it will be okay, and when my day and life does not go as planned (because let's face it, when does it really?!), I need to take a deep breath, and jump back in with two feet. I know I'm not perfect and I've got a great support system but overall it's me and my boys and we are just taking it one day at a time. Don't worry, I have a plan, I always do, it just rarely actually goes according to it. My life seems to go by the theme: structure with flexibility. Sometimes I wish life lessons were easier but then I guess they wouldn't stick with me as much.
Monday, August 29, 2011
The Good and the Bad
Today was busy. This morning was good but this afternoon and evening was a little more rocky but nothing to big. I'm ready for another day. Goodnight all.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Taking Control Back
This last week has been very busy with meeting teachers and getting the boys settled into their school routines. On top of that, my oldest son is doing football so we've been super busy with practices and games. My house took a beating, but I had a goal to regain control of my house and I did today. I got almost all the laundry done and it's looking pretty good. Now to just keep it up during the week. I even took some much needed time to chill with my sons today. I know it's okay to stay busy during deployment, it makes it go faster. However, on the other hand, there is such a thing as to busy, which I'm trying to balance.
Friday, August 26, 2011
I Don't Have Much to Say this Week.
It's been a very busy week and I'm overwhelmed with life so instead of write all of that a friend of mine posted this. I think this is a very honorable thing to do.
http://www.tulsaworld.com/
http://www.tulsaworld.com/
Thursday, August 25, 2011
I Can't Say It Better Than This
A message from one of our guys over there.
One Soldiers comments that is touching many An update of sorts.... transparency revealed by Erik Wolf on Thursday, August 18, 2011 My beloved friends and family.... I've thought for a long time about writing an update... trying to conjure up words to somehow describe to you how things are over here. My past...
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
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